On Monday May 19th, the agency let us know that she has know added an ultrasound picture to her Facebook and they have reason to believe she will keep the baby even though she is not saying to us she has made up her mind. They are giving her some time to think and we have told her we are here for her if she chooses.
We knew this was always a reality… prayed it would not happen. We also thought if she would back out, she would back out and there wouldn't be any in between state like we are in now.
The agency is allowing other potential moms to look at our profile now even though we are still considered "matched". We have had one mom since this happened who has looked at our profile.
This journey to parenthood is not what I thought it would be. I had my life planned out one way and God has my life planned out His way. Im certainly thankful that His plan is better than mine, even when my heart tells me my plan is better. We know and understand that God has plans for us. That no matter what happens He's working something out to fulfill His plans and we only desire to honor him.
So, we are in a state of limbo. Will we have a baby in September, perhaps. Or perhaps, the Lord has a different baby planned for us.
How can you pray?
- Pray that our "matched" Birth Mom will decide one way or the other. I know that she cannot be 100% on an adoption as its a terribly hard situation to be in. May the Lord give her peace about one decision and may she inform us of this decision.
-Pray for my heart. . . there have been lots of highs and lows in this journey to be parents.
And sometimes a song plays on the radio that tugs my heart. This new song "Say Amen" by Finding Favour just reminds me that He's in control, He's working something out, and to always be Thankful. Thank you, Lord!
Kristin you and Logan are in my prayers.You both will make great parents for a very lucky baby.God is just making sure you get the right one.
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